“I think for me the whole experience of my baby being in the unit, him being premature, was that there was just so much guilt surrounding that. But that’s always been the overwhelming feeling for me, so I’ve always just felt I owe him an apology because he should have had another two months nice and safe…it’s like the safest place he could be. The world’s so scary for babies, and I just feel like for me it was just always I felt my body had let him down.”